Poochi

'' I rescued a kitten when I was in Form 5. I named the kitten Poochi. It was my first time being a pet owner. I was so excited and I took Poochi to the vet clinic, and got her vaccinated. Not long after that, about a year and a half now, I got into college and had to stay in the hostel. My mother is unable to help me take care of Poochi because she had asthma. And so I decided to let her go by waiting someone which is kind and friendly to adopt her. I wouldn't want to let her free by the streets, it is cruel and sad. 
So, if there is anyone out there would love Poochi just the way I do, please do contact me. 
Thank you very much. =) ''


That is what I typed in the ''about the pet'' column. I posted Poochi profile in the net for adoption. It was requested by my mother. We quarreled a lot regarding Poochi. After one week, I received a phone call this afternoon from a lady regarding Poochi. She sounds interested about Poochi. Poochi will be meeting her next week. Worst of all, I might unable to see Poochi for the last time. I will be at the hostel, it is my final test week.
It is my mistake from the beginning. I noticed that I always make decision without thinking. It always ended up affecting others, especially my family.
I have been Poochi's owner for two years now. Honestly, I am unable to let her go just yet.
However, I couldn't be selfish. I couldn't only care about my desires. Who is to care for my family?


Dear Enlightened One,
Please help me overcome my dilemma. Let me be able to control my mind and desires..
- Sometimes, we need to sacrifice something to be better in life. -

Times Like This

Have you ever been to a point where you are at a crossroad?
I think... No, I am in that situation right now. Yes, I am lost..
I have been carrying an ego. That so much feeling of pride till now I am finally able to admit that I am weak.
I am suffering indirectly. I am living in a denial. I am unable to accept the truth. I am running away. I felt alone. And I am scared.
Life has not been fair to me. I lost most everything that I precious most. I lost myself. I lost my family. And I had lost the person that I had love with all my heart. I could not bear to taste anymore bitterness.
This heart is fragile.

If I have strayed from the true path.

  may I never do so again.

If I have carelessly hurt someone, by word or deed,

  may I be more mindful the next time.

Dear Buddha, the Enlightened One,  help and give me the strength to set my heart right.

  may my actions reflect, your love and compassion.