Don't Worry, Be Happy

How do you define happiness? I used to always say that everything is elusive for me. It is difficult to discribe, sometimes. Heheh.. :p

Some say happiness is finding good things in your life. Can material possession give you happiness? If so, then millionaires should not feel frustrated with life. Even if you did feel happy. It is for a moment till you realized that you have new things you want. Which leads to greed. It is a no no.. :(

Now, I think otherwise. Happiness is an attitude. It is all inside of your mind. It is the matter of how you think, and how you want things to be the way it is.  :) 

You may say. It is easy to say. Applying is difficult. And the list goes on..and on...

Yes, no doubt. Saying it is much..much..way easier than doing it. At the end, it is your choice. You have a choice, dear. ;p

I don't have a standard official remedy for being happy. :p   But still I would like to share. 

Start by shoving that 'little pain in the arse' thingy into the deepest corner of your heart. I know it is not easy and you may think that no one cares or understands. It is okay. Then start appreciating yourself and the things you have around you. A like attracts like metaphor. When you start loving yourself and then you will send out positive energy..that will attracts more positive energy. :)

Although it is not the best way. Scars are tattooed. But through time..will tell. Everything will be fine. 

So, don't worry and be happy now! Enjoy~ :3

My responsibility for now and forevermore

I am a fully grown up woman now. Hmm.. Maybe not mentally, but physically I am. Not gonna deny that fact anymore. I remembered I used to always say that I am not a girl, and not yet a woman. Hehe.. Say, is it an excuse or being silly? :p  Since physically I am, why not mentally I am too, isn't it? I would sound exaggerate if I say that I am fully matured. Let's just say.. We all are learners till our last breath.

Therefore, I should experience and learn what is destined for me in this lifetime and grow old gracefully and graciously.. :D I make mistakes and I have learned from it. Although I kept repeating it, but it is okay.. Because, well hey!! Nobody is perfect. I may not erase my past, but it is okay. I will draw a future. ;p

I maybe a fool, you may say. But watch out the one who is fooling around. What goes around, comes around. ;p

I want to make my parents proud of me. They are reason I am here. They are my number one fan that had so much faith and hopes in me. Besides, they are the people that would never leave us. For sure.. :)

I don't want to return to my past anymore. Because, that would be extreme selfish. 

What is the purpose living in this world only satisfying our own desires. I would rather satisfy Nature's creation. And my mummy and daddy :p 

NO MORE DENIAL!!!! I AM STRONG!!!!

I AM STRONG!!

I was attached by love, I wasn't thinking about the REALITY of the situation that is happening to me. Stop blaming myself that it happens because of me. This happened to me, I didn't caused it, I didn't do it, it happened to me or it could happened to anyone or anybody. But I am glad it happened to me. Because I am proud to say it to my children, my generations. Or anyone out there.

That I AM STRONG!! YOU ARE STRONG!!

He don't understand. I know he realized the extent of what he did. He know he did it. He apologized. But that is not the problem. It is the SCAR. You flashed back, you remembered, all the time...whether you like it or not, it comes back, and it is PAINFUL. That he will never, ever understand. I do believe the possibility to change. Whether you want to do it or not. It is the action that matters, not the way you talk that counts. Take responsibility for your actions. Not find a way (excuse) to feel sorry for yourself. 

Love doesn't go away, right away. It takes time. But don't ever return and react out of love. Because love is blind, love is so blind. I learned it the hard way. And it is the best way.